What is Loneliness?
There are three types of loneliness, and some of us have all three of them, while others just have one or two. But whichever one is a part of your life, it can be a great pain to the mind and soul.
- Emotional loneliness – the absence of a meaningful relationship.
- Social Loneliness – a perceived deflict in the quality of social connections.
- Existenial lonelness – a feeling of fundermaental separateness from others and the wider world.
My Personal Journey.
I have been on my own for 24 years, but who’s counting? Haha, and I find it increasingly difficult as I get older in life. Over the last few years, I have found myself getting lonelier as the weeks go by. At work, all is good; I get along well with the guys, and for me, it’s some company in a sort of way. I have been used to being around people for most of my life, actually nearly all of it. For many years after the divorce, I was just turning 40 and had two young kids at the time. I have always been involved with sports, either as a player or coach. I decided to put my time into my son and daughter and took coaching very seriously while working full time, so I never felt alone in a way.
With the passion I had for coaching and bringing up the kids, as they entered their late teens, I became more serious about coaching by investing more time into it. When I turned 57, I took a hard and deep look into my life, where I was heading, and the way I was going. The heart and passion for my coaching were slowly deteriorating. Not that I didn’t love what I was doing, but the realization of knowing that I was just living day by day when it came to the financial side of my life. So I ventured into FIFO which meant I was to walk away from a passion for sports that I had been pursuing for 35 years. In doing so, it turned my life around, as I started living and investing in things that I had only ever looked at but never purchased for my own comfort.
It has grown over the last few years.
I have had the opportunity to work with great company throughout the day, spending hours and days traveling across Western Australia. I have been fortunate to witness the beautiful aspects that this region has to offer, such as stunning countryside towns along the coast and deep inland. Additionally, this has allowed me to meet new people and gain insights into the diverse lifestyles experienced in both big cities and small rural communities.
It’s the evening, and I’m spending time in my room, which could be a hotel, motel, resort, or camp. But I’m often alone. Going home is good. I get to see my son and experience his journey through life, both with work and his personal life. I drive into the driveway at home, walk into the house, and feel the happiness and aura of friendliness and love. It’s something special. My daughter and her husband are doing a wonderful job of bringing the family together with such beauty.
But I’m seeking connection for my personal life. I find it harder to have that companionship with care and love, especially during special days of my life. If I’m sick or have a major operation, I don’t have someone to share those moments with. Even just having tea or going out for a coffee, movies, or fine dining, I do it on my own and have been doing so for many years.
The Way It’s Now For Me.
I take great care of my looks and strive to maintain a good physique. I believe that as humans, we often judge based on appearances without taking the time to truly get to know someone beyond the surface. Yes, I prefer to spend my time alone, but I have built connections over the years with a few ladies who work in the industry of providing companionship and fulfilling various needs and desires. I also avail myself of massages from regular girls, with the option of additional services if desired. I have explored different avenues, such as online dating, in my quest to meet women, but it has not been successful or satisfying for me.
I can and will say that I’m not a sick or deveret man of any sort. I treat ladies with the highest respect, and they show me the same by keeping in touch with me through ringing, texting, or setting a time where we can catch up. That makes me feel good in a lot of ways, as it provides the comfort of companionship. However, it’s not what I want or desire, as it doesn’t bring the bond of friendship, loyalty, compassion or a soulmate. Knowing that I can come home to the companionship of a lady who truly wants to be with me is what I truly desire.
Looking in the mirror every morning – is this me? Is this what I want in life? Am I doing the right thing? The ladies I pay and see are humans. As I get to know them, they are just like us; they have a life filled with ups and downs. They understand respect, loyalty, and have good attitudes towards life. I know it’s not going anywhere in life, nor do I want to keep doing this, but I feel so alone in my mind, heart, and soul. It gives me a few hours to talk and have bedside company with me, just for that short time. But I find it hard, as I understand that when I walk out, I am alone and getting even more lonely as I grow.
Working to Have the Right Outlook and Attitude.
It’s like anything in life, we need to weigh up the left side of life, which I call the good, or the right side, which is the bad. How we feel about the concept and what we are doing to fix or fulfill the right direction in life. I have my kids, grandkids, family, and friends, but I do want the friendship, companionship, and true love of a special lady in my life. I often ask the question, do I ask for too much? I don’t believe I do, as I feel I’m a good man with great morals, attitude, and respect in life. I understand many things and have gone through many things in life, but I do not understand this feeling and my desire to be a man that has a good woman by his side. And more than anything, the loneliness I’m finding is really hard to comprehend. Why am I in this position with my life?
Like anything, I will keep a good outlook on my position in life. I believe we all have that special person to share with, but I just haven’t met or bumped into that person. It will happen one day; I don’t know when, but it’s going to be someone I didn’t expect or plan for. So, I just learn to understand and accept myself for what I’m doing and who I am as a person – someone who has a lot to give to the right lady one day. Or maybe, my destiny is to be single as my way of living.
#Journey Through Life.
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